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katangahan nga ba?

may kanya-kanya talagang katangahan ang mga tao.. malamang isa na ko dun. i remember the stupid things i've done [i don't know if it really was stupid] when i was still head-over-heels in love with my OGL. di ko maimagine na nagawa ko lahat yun, but still,.. well i guess some things are not meant to be. sabi nga ni meyn, "di ako umaasa pero umasa ako". umasa ako minsan..


greeting card

i went to national bookstore, i was in my sophomore year in college ata.. may nakita akong greeting card, wala lang, binili ko.. at.. naisip ko si OGL, i wanted to give it to him.. namumutaktak pa ko ng mga sweet nothings nun, sudden burst of thoughtfulness ika nga. binili ko, then i thought of a way kung pano ko mabibigay sa kanya na surprise. yuck... hehehe.. then i asked a favor from my former classmate, who has a boyfriend in la salle, who has this bestfriend who was a former blockmate of OGL. ang daming pinagpasahan. then i heard the story from him na lang na he was so surprised nga, nakita na lang niya yung card on his desk.... i didn't know how he felt that time. hindi na rin ako nagtanong..


stars

i was in a leadership training with gurlfriend meyn. october 22-24 2002[?] october 27 was his birthday, i couldn't think of anything that i can give as a gift. habang nasa baguio, parang may "ting!" i got it! gagawa ako ng hand-made stars, you know those colorful strips then tupi-tupi, tapos i-form mo ng stars. i got a jar from meyn, nagstart ako gumawa sa baguio, sa 27 pa naman birthday nya, so aabot ako. ayun, with matching letter pa yun, ay ang arte talaga. hehehehe... bumili pa ko ng bonsai as pasalubong, malamang patay na yun ngayon..


simbang gabi

during his college days, every term ata may failing mark sya. his mom warned him na pag may bagsak sya sa particular term na yun, we we're second year college din nun.. yun, pag may bagsak sya ulit, exile sya sa masbate. gosh! i was so scared that time, i thought magiging maayos ang lahat, but still, 0.0 ang nakuha nya sa physics 2. nagkatext kame nun, he told me the news, i panicked, i even called him, and i found myself crying, sobra.. nung maubos yung load ko, lumabas ako at bumili, [cellcard pa uso that time] wala ako sa sarili habang naglalakad, mangiyak ngiyak pa din ako, then i called him again. wag na daw ako umiyak, blah blah.. haay.. it was Christmas time, first time kong nabuo ang simbang gabi because of this wish na sana hindi na sya ipatapon dun. luckily my wish was granted, iyak iyak pa ko kahit sa simbahan habang nagdadasal ng taimtim. nagagawa nga naman ng pag-ibig!


fruits and milk

i was 3rd year college, tampo-tampuhan pa ko kunwari kase hindi na sya tumatawag. then i heard nagkahepatitis sya, shempre ako naman naalarma ng sobra. i was so bothered that time, kaya after classes, kahit ang init init, sherwin and i went to sm manila, bili ako sa grocery ng fruits and milk. favorite nya kase yun and i'm sure it helped somehow. pumunta ako sa bahay nila, surprise visit pa nga yun, no idea sya na pupunta ako dun, kahit out of the way, plus the traffic in las piñas, punta pa din ako. i was still in my uniform, holding books.. can't imagine myself.. effort kung effort!!


suprise, surprise

20th birthday nya, last year to be exact. i was invited, together with my 2 friends, shempre punta naman kame, kahit nahihiya ako kay alvie kase from caloocan pa sya, enrollment for 2nd sem that time. bumili pa ko ng Purpose Driven Life as a gift [banal!]. kahit kame lang 3 naguusap nun ayos lang, then all of a sudden, there was this group of girls, kumukuha ng food, and pakilala nya, "girlfriend ko".. huwhaat?? did i hear it right? girlfriend? gosh, i was so shocked, i tried to smile the whole time we we're there, buti kelangan na umuwi ni nikki. i didn't have to make some lame excuse para umalis. actually di ako makapagreact, yung mga kasama ko ang nagffreakout. well, di pa nagsisink-in ang hurt nun. pero after non, tawag ako agad kay bestfwend kat. i needed a friend that time. it was like a scene from a movie diba? i had no clue na may nililigawan pala sya, or kung may ligawan ngang nangyari, kase before that day, weeks before that day rather, lagi kameng naguusap, then out of the blue, may ipapakilala syang girlfriend nya? sobrang shocking nun.


oh well, wala na kong magagawa, anjan na yan. actually madami pang nangyari, sobrang masunurin ako sa kanya, kahit di nya nakikita sinusunod ko, pag sinabing matulog na, tutulog na ko. pag sinabing uminom ng gamot, iinom ako ng gamot. ganun ako kabait nun. grabe. every exam nya, sobrang pinagppray ko pa sya. nagpapanic pag nagkakasakit sya. ay talaga naman... nagiging mababaw din ako and vulnerable. gaya nung umiyak ako dahil di nya ko nabati nung bday ko last year, and worse, naalala lang nya dahil may nagpaalala sa kanya. ouch!! ewan ko kung katangahan talaga ang mga pinaggagagawa ko dati. or sobrang minahal ko lang sya [baduy! hehe.. pero totoo] siguro kelangan talaga dumaan ng tao sa ganong stage. unconditional love ika nga. and i can say i really learned something from those experiences. i dunno kung maeexperience ko ulit lahat ng to, lahat ng mga kagagahan ko, but i'm hoping that if i had to go through it again, i'm hoping it will be with the right person, in the right time. the one God has prepared for me..yung God's will ko.. hehehe..

posted by liyan @ 9:17 AM